I felt my breathing become weak. I sucked in what I could. Would I pass out? My face felt wet
and I could taste the salt of my tears. I began shaking. I had to stop. Just stop. Just quit. I’ve
tried so many times. Ive FAILED so many times. How can I possibly do something right for
once. Someone had once told me that Jesus loved me. I want to believe it, but how could I? My
life proves he doesn’t. I threw up again today. My eating disorder is full blown. My depression
is worse than ever. I feel helpless, friendless, and unloved.
One year later. . .
Dear Lord, You have changed my life. I have become a new creature. Lord you have renewed
me. Changed me from the inside out. I made it through recovery and am being changed daily
to walk with my God and king. I love you Lord and I am now living to proclaim your name.
Thank you for being so merciful to a wretch like me. I love you, amen.
People go through this everyday. People who are STUCK. Completely stuck and feel
helpless. You may be that person. I want to give you hope. God can change anyone!
You are loved by the creator of the universe.
Contact me if you have questions! Love, Emma